The owner’s approached me the other day and said that they had something they wanted to give me for all of my work on the ranch… They wanted to take me along when they rescue a horse!
They would keep it and care for it on the Ranch, they would have a horse trainer come in to work with me and the horse so we could connect before we left for WI.
They want to get a new horse for the ranch regardless, but because of my love for the animals and my work trying to make it better for the horses, they thought this would be a perfect way to say thank you.
I was absolutely flabbergasted! This was on Saturday.They wanted to go Sunday morning and look at a horse that needed to be rescued. All day long this offer excited me yet haunted me.
Messages from my childhood and my alcoholic dad, about being, “an ungrateful SOB” to my own feelings of awkwardness. I can’t even accept a compliment without feeling weird let alone a gift!
By the end of the day I was emotionally exhausted but I knew I had to decline.
I am not doing what I am doing for anything in return. I am not even doing it for the owners.
I am doing it for the horses! Each day a new break through of a horse that is no longer afraid or does a lip gesture or a great big neigh or whinny as if to say, “I remember you”! Or trust of one of the most fearful horses sharing their platform with Shadow and the one who now lets me wipe the tears out of her eyes.
When I went up by Monique’s pen yesterday and saw that her urine now drains out of her pen, I was paid plenty!
That is all the payment I need.
Back home I worked 20 hours a week, got paid great with benefits and couldn’t wait to get the 20 hours over with!
I respectfully declined the gift and hope that Linda and Don can understand.